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Thursday, September 16, 2010

Last Year's Rain Didn't Fall Quite So Hard


iTunes coincidence.


I'm on shuffle. This song comes on. It's The Twilight Sad's "Last Year's Rain Didn't Fall Quite So Hard." Apparently the last time I listened to this song was exactly a year ago at 11:00 pm and a few seconds.

This band induces nostalgia, even on the first listen, so you could imagine how I feel. I'm relating to the name of the track more than ever right now.

I feel like I'm buried under six feet of school work, and last year right about this time I felt like I was in deep. I'd rant about why it's screwed up that our society forces people to do this to themselves, but I'll save that for someone who who has more time on their hands and their blog.


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The best part of waking up


Thai hot sauce in the eye
What better way to start the day?

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Music Makers

I watched Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory last night. In it, Willy Wonka himself says, "we are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of dreams." As I heard that I thought I might sample it some day.

Right now I'm listening to shuffle on my computer and coincidentally that quote popped up in Aphex Twin's "Music Makers."

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Thoughts on Oddsac


I woke up with a hole in my tongue and the eerie feeling that I just hitched a ride through a wormhole.

I've been listening to Animal Collective for about five years now, and I've enjoyed almost everything they've put out since then; I can't say I've ever been to keen on Strawberry Jam, but that's another story. I was 16 the first time I heard their music. I was in the process of staying up all night, drawing. My friend put on Sung Tongs, and we listened to it three times in a row. Until then, I'd never heard a sound that mirrored my thoughts so well. It struck a chord in me to say the least.

Last night I watched Oddsac for the first time, and it certainly evoked the same feelings that Sung Tongs had that night when I was 16. It awoke dormant emotions. I found myself gazing, mouth open, head cocked, for pretty much the entire album. I feel as though Animal Collective and Danny Perez have found the key to blending human senses. As far as I can tell a "visual album" has never been created before. Oddsac, for me, was kind of a Zaireeka moment.

If you're going into Oddsac expecting a movie with a plot, you're going into Oddsac with the wrong idea. If you're going into Oddsac expecting a typical Animal Collective album, you've also got the wrong idea. Oddsac's audio harnesses the seamlessness of an Animal Collective live show. The music itself kind of sounds what happens when a group who produced Merriweather Post Pavillion goes back to their roots, brining back ideas from a Spirit They've Gone Spirit They've Vanished or a Hollinndagain. The film itself is challenging and stimulating. It warps reality and creates "simultaneous ecstasy and horror".

The DVD comes with a 50 page, hardcover book that made very little sense to me upon first flipping through its pages. I told myself, "it will make sense after I've seen the film." And it did. It makes so much sense now. The only criticism I have against this album is that it is not packaged with a warning label for epileptics or sufferers of frequent panic attacks .

All and all, my experience really blew the cap off of my expectations, and I really am still in awe. See this album.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Ears and Eyes

Two years ago I was in a band called Ears and Eyes. We stopped writing music and playing shows two years ago. Last spring we were asked to play a show in Normal, which we played. We decided it would be a good idea to play more shows. We played a show last night, 8/3/10, at The 7th Street Space in DeKalb with Hastas and Baby Sphinx Supreme Antiquities, which was awesome*. It was the fifth time me and Andrew played together in two years.

Here is a link to Trying to Capture Fire, Ears and Eyes' first and only album.
Packaging handmade by me and Andrew.

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*recorded by one of the Kyles from Hastas.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Rock Bottom

Kicked out of an ABBA cover band. Replaced by a drum machine.



Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Summer

I have been negligent of this blog lately. I've got better things to do then sit behind a computer in the summer.
see: my journal.
See you in the fall.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Coffee Grounds or Coffee Grinds?

Minutely related to the following post...

What's the difference between coffee grinds and coffee grounds? Here's the only light Google can shed.

For the purpose of this post I'm just gonna go ahead and say that coffee grinds is the substance you put into a filter, and coffee grounds is the mushy grinds after water has run through it.

Now onto more related matters...

Just because you get some coffee grounds into your pot of coffee doesn't make it a horrible day. Two days ago this happened to me. I didn't let grounds in my coffee bother me. I just added some more water to the pot and started my day. I got rid of some junk around the apartment, cleaned off my porch and made it a nice place to sit, and went through the old receipts in my car with hopes of finding a lifetime warranty on a muffler, which I need desperately right now, from Lovell's Discount Tire in DeKalb. Later on I played some disc golf and read a substantial amount of Daniel Quinn's "The Story of B." During my reading I got a call from a friend asking me if I wanted to make $10 holding a ladder for his brother for a few minutes. I said I'd do it for free and met his brother down the street. The long and short of this tangent is that I made $20 doing the job. It was a great day.

I found the lifetime warranty, which is great because about a year ago I went into Lovell's to check and see if they had it on file, and they don't. So that's about $200 I don't have to spend now.

However, yesterday I lost the lifetime warranty, which is great because now I get to buy a brand new muffler. Also, yesterday my boss gave me some coffee she roasted herself, which is great because maybe now I can somehow redo the last two days by accidently getting some grounds in my coffee.


Wednesday, May 26, 2010

To Blog

Blogging is like keeping a journal or diary, but it's less private as a journal or diary. I may not write some things on my blog that I would write in my journal, and vice versa. Sometimes I get used to writing in my blog so much that I don't write in my journal. Sometimes I get used to writing in my journal so much that I don't blog. Maybe it's all a reflection on the way our society is headed. I only listen to some albums as a CD or an LP, and I only listen to some albums digitally. Sometimes I listen to my iPod so much that I don't listen to my CD's. Sometimes I listen to my CD's so much that I forget about my iPod.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Information Delivery Service Presents...


My friend John and I are starting a seasonal multimedia magazine. This is call for submissions.

Each issue will be tangible and digital.

Any form of art is an acceptable submission.

Anyone can submit any amount of pieces in any format.

All visuals (literature, photographs, paintings, etc) must be submitted in PDF or JPG
All audio must be submitted in MP3 or AIFF
All film must be submitted in MPG or MOV

All submissions must be original and must have been made in the last 6 months from each deadline.

Send submissions to idspresents@gmail.com

All contributors will decide on a title and design for each issue.

Tell everyone you know.

Friday, May 28th is the deadline for the first issue.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Animal Collective Interview

I meant to do this a while ago, on April 2nd to be exact...

I went to Southern Illinois University for a year. I had my own radio show at WIDB during my time there. I essentially signed up at the radio station because I knew I could interview Animal Collective due to my frequent posting at the Collected Animals Forum.

I interviewed Animal Collective on April 2nd, 2007; it was right before Strawberry Jam came out and right after Person Pitch and Pullhair Rubeye came out. It was also right before Josh Dibb officially left the band. I interviewed all four members individually for a half hour each. It was a really fun experience, sitting in the studio waiting nervously, not knowing who would call next. The interview starts out like an episode of the Chris Farley Show, but as the interview goes on I become less giddy and more comfortable.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

I Know It When I Hear It

Here's an essay I just finished. It's a true story about audio obscenity, an idea that I can't find any definition of anywhere on the internet. I may end up expanding on it, so consider this rough draft.

I Know It When I Hear It

I joined Delayed Reaction in the winter of my 8th grade year. Delayed Reaction played punk rock music and consisted of three members: Ryan played guitar and sang, John played bass and sang, and I played the drums. Our role models were bands like Rancid, Screeching Weasel, and the Vandals. We put out three albums between 2002 and 2004, all which showcased our best shot at offending as many people as possible. The back sleeves of our CD’s were riddled with songs like “Hot For Substitute,” “Jesus Was a Hit,” “Fuck You Wheaton,” and “Emancipation Masturbation.” Delayed Reaction practiced in my parents’ garage in Aurora, Illinois just a block away from Waubonsie Valley High School. We were good friends, and played gigs regularly with Evil Empire, a local satanic, political ska band. We played gigs in garages and basements, and every now and then we would play at a local dive bar. We never played to a crowd of more than fifty people, yet.

We sat on the curb in front of my parents’ house during a break from practice in the summer of 2003. A rusty, red Ford Ranger passed us once. It made one more pass before parking on the curb beside us. Its bed was piled high with tools. The driver’s door screeched open, and a lanky middle-aged man hopped out.

“You guys in a band?” He said, quickly walking toward us.

“Yeah,” we all said at once, anxiously smiling.

I assumed he was an angry neighbor. It would not have been the first time we would be asked to stop playing.

“Were we playing too loud?” I said.

“No, not at all.” He pulled a small card out of his pocket and handed it to me. “I’m Jim O’Malley. I’m running the Fall Pig Roast at Waubsonsie this year. I’ve been doing a lot of work on the field over there for the past few weeks, and it sounds like you guys are always practicing. What’s your music like?”

“We play punk rock music,” I said. “Like The Ramones and The Clash.”

I was lying. I saw this encounter as an opportunity to play a show, a really big show. If I told Jim we sounded like Screeching Weasel one of two things could have happened:

1. He would not have any clue of what I was talking about.

2. He would have a clue of what I was talking about, and he would drive off with our chances at a huge gig.

“Ah, the Ramones. That brings me back. Well, would you guys be interested in playing The Pig Roast this year?”

Butterflies shot out of my chest. The Pig Roast was huge. Anyone at Waubonsie Valley who played a fall sport, including friend and family, was invited to The Pig Roast. Furthermore, this was my last summer in Aurora before moving. I looked at this gig as my chance to break a champagne bottle on the side of a giant ship before its maiden voyage.

“Yes. Absolutely.” I said.

“Well great.” Jim scribbled some stuff on a piece paper and handed it to me. “Here’s everything you need to know. You guys don’t swear in your songs do you?”

“No,” we all said at once.

We were all lying. We figured no one would be able to hear our lyrics. After all, no one could ever understand our words at our shows because of several faulty house P.A. systems.

Jim greeted us, on the day of the show, with an expensive looking P.A. system and a stage: two things we had never had before. The stage was set up at the head of Waubonsie’s varsity field. We were there to set up about an hour before the event officially began. Many of our friends, including Evil Empire, came just as early to shoot the breeze. More and more attendees began showing up as the start time drew nearer and nearer. Eventually, hundreds of people were swimming in a sea of the smoke of several table-sized grills. There was every type of person in the crowd: punks and jocks, students and adults, infants and the elderly. Start-time. I was extremely nervous for two reasons:

1. I have never, even to this day, played a show in front of that many people.

2. I knew everyone was going to hear what we had to say whether they liked it or not.

We took it head on. Ryan shredding his permanently distorted guitar, John pounding his synonymous bass, and me pummeling my drums; we played an entire set until I realized we got much less than a delayed reaction out of the audience. In fact, we got almost no reaction at all. The audience had almost completely ignored us. We took a break behind the stage and discussed the lack of interest in the crowd. We talked with our friends and family who all said we played great. Band morale was low, and we had to play another set. Start-time. We decided to cover songs we had never played before, which went fine, but we still received the same negligent response out of our audience. After playing Choking Victim’s “Infested” we called upon Ben, the lead singer of Evil Empire, to come up and improvise to a song we had no lyrics for. Ben agreed. He jumped on stage and grabbed Ryan’s microphone. Ben’s singing is better defined as screaming. Ben would often burst blood vessels in his eyes from yelling so hard during Evil Empire sets. Ryan’s voice held attitude, but it lacked the urgency that Ben’s provided. Delayed Reaction wanted to be heard, and Ben was just the guy for the job.

“I support terrorism,” Ben said into the microphone.

The phrase echoed off the bodies of everyone in the crowd. I watched a sea of smiling suburbanites boil from behind my drum set. Their heads turned as instantly as their smiles clouded. The group of happy pig roasters, who were once ignorant of the fact that a band was even playing, now turned into an angry mob rushing the stage like bulls on parade. The next few minutes were a blur to me. Video documentation reveals a song about anarchy, devil worship, statutory rape, and smoking crack cocaine. It also reveals a lengthy, collective “boo!” Among the mob were cops, deans, and Waubonsie’s Principal. Our power was shut off. We were escorted off the stage and asked not to come back. No arrests were made.

Every citizen of the United States of America is entitled to the freedom of expression. This freedom means that one is able to manifest and convey his or her ideas as something experiential without interference by the government. However, there are limits to this freedom, which are in place to protect a citizen from expression that can be considered harmful to his or her mental or physical well-being. Obscenity is one of many limits to our freedom of expression. It may famously only be known when seen, but obscenity can easily be howled and heard. Audio obscenity is composed of three parameters: volume, tone, and message. The louder a sound is the more obscene that sound will be. A loud sound has the potential to drown out all other sound and stop internal thought or external dialogue. The tone in which a sound is conveyed determines the emotions the recipient will experience upon receiving. Dissonance and discord typically invoke feelings of anxiety, anger, and sadness; whereas consonance and harmony typically invoke feelings of calmness, pleasure, and happiness. If the message conveyed through the sound comes in the form of words, then the message is the easiest parameter to measure; words can easily be obscene because the human voice is easily relatable. However, if the message of the sound is non-verbal, then the line between message and tone can be blurred. All three parameters must be equally engaged for a sound to be deemed obscene. Audio obscenity, like all obscenity, is subjective. The audience receiving the sound has the authority to determine whether the sound is obscene or not. Music is a harbor for audio obscenity; its volume can be turned up to 11, its tone can be solely din, and an artist can pretty much say whatever he or she wants by agreeing to slap a “parental advisory” sticker on the album cover. Music can offend some people with ease, and some people thoroughly enjoy offensive music. I happened to belong to the later group during my adolescence. In fact, I did not just listen to offensive music, I wrote and preformed it as well.

The audience’s reaction implies that Ben’s one song with Delayed Reaction was more obscene than an entire Delayed Reaction set, but why? The reason lies within the parameters of audio obscenity. Punk rock music is traditionally played at blaring volumes. Playing at such high levels of sound is almost a rite of passage. Ben’s singing was easily much louder than Ryan’s. A Delayed Reaction set without Ben may have been more obscene if Ryan’s voice were a little bit louder. Couple blaring music on top of deafening vocals and you get an altogether intensely loud sound thus fulfilling the volume parameter of audio obscenity. The tone of punk rock is traditionally chaotic and edgy. Punk rock guitarists mimic the sound of torn amplifiers with distortion pedals, which they fully utilize, and punk rock drum rhythms traditionally incorporate lots of discordant cymbals. Ben’s vocal tone was much more harsh than Ryan’s. Ben’s screams sounded like ripping many layers of construction paper at once, whereas Ryan’s singing was discernibly melodic and composed. Musically, both Delayed Reaction sets were virtually identical. It was, however, the din of Ben’s voice paired with the music that fulfilled the tonal parameter of audio obscenity. The message of punk rock is traditionally full of angst and rebellion. Many punk rock bands belong to a counterculture that adopts these attitudes as guiding principles. Punk rock lyrics rely on taboo words and ideas to depict messages. The messages of many Delayed Reaction songs were comparatively much less taboo than Ben’s messages. Ben started out by telling his audience, blatantly, that he supports terrorism at a time when only one full year had passed since the Al-Qaeda attacks on the Twin Towers. He also ranted about consuming highly illegal drugs and engaging in sexual activity with minors. Delayed Reaction’s lyrics contained many taboo words and dealt with many taboo subjects, but they were generally light-hearted and had a humorous message behind them. Delayed Reaction’s musical message and Ben’s broadcast of hate fulfilled the message parameter of audio obscenity.

While Delayed Reaction’s performance with Ben at the Waubsonsie Valley Pigroast satisfied all three parameters of audio obscenity, it also exemplified its subjectivity. The pig roasters were introduced to a challenging style of music, which howled blaring messages that did not agree with their values. Delayed Reaction was never kicked off stage prior to this show, and they were never kicked off stage after this show; not surprisingly, The Pig Roast was the only show whose audience was composed mainly of people who did care for punk rock music. Our freedom of expression was limited when the performance was, justly, cut short. Delayed Reaction certainly exercised their freedom of expression to the fullest, but they never exceeded it. No arrests were made.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Name Transference

I've had pretty consistent back problems for about a month and a half now. A woman I work with noticed this and told me she would bring me the ad of a local chiropractor from the newspaper whom she highly recommends. She handed me the ad the next day. The chiropractor has the exact same first and last name as me. Dr. Daniel Monaghan. So I have to go now right? Should I ask for a discount? Should I steal all of his business cards? This reminds me...

Whenever I meet someone with the same name as me, I say to them, "hey nice name."

I worked at a small restaurant called The Village Squire in West Dundee, Illinois a few years ago. My first day there was training. I followed an experienced waitress around the Squire. She introduced me to the menu, the staff, and a few regulars. I met a retired police chief, a regular, who ate avolemono and played cards at the Squire every Sunday. We were introduced and shook hands.

"Hi I'm Dan, today's my first day here."
"Oh hi Dan, I'm Dan. You'll see me around here quite a bit, so you better get used to me."
We exchanged laughs. His was booming and genuine. Mine was complimentary and forced.
"Hey, nice name!"

The police chief gave me a glare and didn't say anything. A few months later I found out that his name is Dick.

So now who's a Dan and who's a dick?


Monday, March 29, 2010

Belgh

For the two or three people who actually read my blog (maybe that's even a little ambitious) I know I haven't posted in a while. I really want to, but I just don't have the time with school and work and school and work and school and work and sleep. I'm not going to promise more posts like everyone else like me in the blogosphere, but I will say I am tired, and that I will only become more tired with time.

Here's a list of 5 creative, progressive things I've been doing besides blogging.

1. Recording an EP: a little more than halfway done
2. Re-teaching myself guitar: always a work in progress.
3. Reading lots of awesome material: Nick Flynn, Charless Chesnutt, Mark Twain, Truman Capote, Allison Bechdel.
4. Thinking about future projects: singular and/or collaborative: auditory, visual, or stenographic.
5. Teaching my cats to play harmonica: not.
Email me for more information about any of the above topics or for more pictures of my cats playing the harmonica.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Pat's Giant Fingerprint

My friend Pat, whom I interviewed a month or two ago for this blog, finally got his Sculpture up on Northern Illinois University's Jack Arends Art Building.
Man, can you tell he is excited? From what I understand, it took quite some time for Pat to be able to finally plat his fingerprint on the building because of the bureaucracy of the university and the union needed to hang the sculpture. A while back he told me it was just sitting in his studio collecting dust. Here is a cool, short video made by Dan Wilcox at the Northern Star about Pat's giant fingerprint.



Thursday, March 11, 2010

Good People @ The Benson Club

The audio for this video can be found here.

Good People is...
Mic Anderson
Tommy Gilbert
Dan Monaghan

This video was recorded by Shannon Spicer and edited by John Benson.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

NIU school shooting pt. 2

A second shooting took place at NIU two weeks ago. It happened two years and two weeks after the first shooting that took place in Cole Hall. I went to the press conference that took place that morning. I was one of maybe 10 students there. I felt like the only student who wasn't a witness to the shooting. I scribbled notes in a notebook the entire time. Here's what I had to say.

Who in this room has been up since 4:00?

Red, black and blue.

Reporters talk loudly with other reporters. Cracking jokes. Emotionless people reporting emotions.

Solemn students quietly whispering to each other. I am represented by them.

The reporters sigh when it is announced that the president will be late. Like time is more important than life.

A reporter asks the students in front of me if she can get an interview. The students decline. She looks at my notebook and smiles the way one colleague smiles to another; downward.

The president is here with his loud shoes.

The reporters hush. The students remain quiet.

"Isolated incident. Two individuals. Normal operations continue. Information hotlines. Counseling services. Continuous updates. Redundant. Unambiguous. 3:29 am. Stevenson North. 3:30. 3:34. 3:36. 3:48. 4:30. 5:03"

All clear...

John Peters says 2/14 like America says 9/11. The day has been stained.

My vision is blurry. Lack of water? Lack of coffee? I have both. The whites are turning whiter. The darks are becoming brighter.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I actually thought this when I was a kid...

I was probably about 6, or however old you are when you're in first grade. My mom took me school supply shopping at a new Jewel in a new neighborhood. I remember my mom telling me that one of our old neighbors built the Jewel. I picked up a notebook that had a few different colored chains of concentric spheres flying around the cover.

I thought that the notebook must have been used before, and that my old neighbor, the one who helped build the Jewel, created a machine with multiple erasers on it and used it to erase all of the pages in all of the used notebooks that Jewel sold.

Monday, February 15, 2010

The customer is always right.

The customer is always right.

That is an ideology that I just don't agree with. It's systems like this that let rude people get their way. It encourages impolite people to continue to be impolite.

Walmart has a set of "in" doors and "out" doors to enter and exit their building. I was walking leaving Walmart today when I realized that you can walk out the "in" doors and in the "out" doors and you will still trigger a sensor which will open the door. I've been shopping at that Walmart for about three years now, and today was the first time I realized that I have been breaking a rule almost every time I shop there. Everyone does.

I work for Borders, and regardless of what company policy says, I make sure to let the customer know when he or she is acting ridiculous. I love doing it. I get paid minimum wage, I don't write the rules of the company. I don't deserve to be degraded, no one does. I give people the attitude they transmit to me.

A guy comes in a few weeks ago. Throws a professional wrestling magazine on the counter. I ask him if he found everything alright. No response. I continued the transaction saying absolutely nothing. I threw his change on the counter. He walked away and said, "you're welcome." I said nothing. It felt great.

It is important to note that, while backing out of my parking space at Walmart I was almost hit by a car driving in the opposite direction in a one-way parking lot. But the customer is always right. They can exit through an entrance and enter through an exit.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Object Permanence

I share an apartment with three other roommates. About a year ago, I put up a sign on our fridge that says "In all affairs, it's a healthy thing now and then to hang a question mark on the things you have long taken for granted."

I decided to take it down tonight. I imaged my roommates checking behind and inside of the fridge for the sign.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Here's something fun to do...

I've been doing this since I was a kid whenever I've been extremely bored. It's kind of complicated, but if you read these directions and follow them with extreme care you just may be able to experience this startling phenomenon.

1. Place your hands vertically in front of your face, or chest, or wherever. Just make sure that your palms are facing one another, perpendicular to your chest, and with your fingers spread out.

2. Bring your two hands together so that nothing but your finger tips touch. Make sure that each fingertip lines up with its opposite, corresponding fingertip.

3. Relax your hand, but don't let your palms touch.

4. Push lightly and repetitively with your palms. Focus all of the motion where your two middle knuckles would meet if you were to let your palms touch.

5. Continue steps 1-4 whenever you are extremely bored.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Creativity intervews

I was assigned a project for an Education Psychology class in which I was to "interview highly-creative college students and ask them about their high school experiences". My presentation was only allowed to be ten minutes long, and this was a task I found almost impossible to do without doing my interviewees justice. Thus, this post. Enjoy the complete transcripts of my interviews with John Benson, Erin Monaghan, Shannon Spicer, and Pat Marek.


John Benson
John is a senior Art History major at Northern Illinois University in DeKalb, Illinois. He graduated from Morrison High School in Morrison, Illinois in 2006. He is currently running an on-going project called Information Delivery Service though his blog Foam Facebook.

SP: What sparked IDS?

JB: To begin with, Information Delivery Service was claimed just as a name for the free-form musical projects I was involved with in the past year, with the idea that this sort of generalized info-age name would be something that has the power/possibility to move beyond myself. All of the free-improv gigs before IDS were usually labeled with "John Benson" just because I never had a name to offer the music promoters who were representing my musical comrades and I, and so they just took mine. I really didn't like that a collective of musicians were being umbrellaed under my name considering how equally important everybody else's efforts were in our music, and so after a couple gigs like that, I decided it was time for the collective (which is never really embodied by any specific number of individuals) to come into its own.

Information Delivery Service comes from Information Delivery Services, the department I was working in at the Founders Memorial Library at NIU. IDS is basically the central local for information arrivals and departures around central Northern Illinois. You might think of it as an airport for information. My job at IDS was to send articles on their way through the information circuits of the globe. I guess what really sparked Information Delivery Service (the collective), then, was the idea that anything can be rendered into information at this point in time. Going back to the beginning, I see IDS as having been about delivering sound as information, both as an alternative to the hegemonic definition of information that the scholarly world typically propagates (ideas generally, words specifically, and, in other words, the stuff of books and articles), but more to the point, because I believed that free-jazz was the sort of radical information that I saw fit to lionize. (and I still do) The spark, to put it another way, is the way we imagine information today.

And the revolutionary potential in that is that it makes way for the expanding (or exploding, depending on how you look at it) of the canon of Information in the twenty first century

SP: What does creativity mean to you?

JB: Information Delivery Service is a vehicle for infinite creative imagineering. IDS is a reflexive agency of information sharing. It is opening to whatever people are going to put into it. So in that way, IDS means freedom to me. It means I am a free agent of information. It means the world (of information) to me. It means the world of creative culture. Creativity is the sort of life-blood of all active being. It means you are making something out of yourself and your experiences, but not in the same way that career achievement might suppose one has made something out of oneself. Creativity defines our experiences and the uses we put to them much more intimately than does any title that could be instituted by society. Today, creativity is the cornerstone of D-I-Y politics. That etches a lot of meaning into creative activity for me. (For more on the matter of creativity and DIY politics, please consider reading Aldous Huxley very short article, “Science, Liberty and Peace”)

SP: What was high school like for you?

JB: I had enjoyable classes and a great teacher, but it was not a particularly enriching atmosphere. Most of the students didn't want to be there, and they took the classes as blow-off classes. It was not the best environment to work in. All of my creativity was done on my own.

SP: Where have you been channeling your creative energy most recently? How does this relate to your upbringing?

JB: My focus right now is on cultural invention and mythic imagination. The process is taking me all over the place. I am inventing the idea of alternative modernity in the image of my imagination. I have invented a mythic representation of myself (my avatar if you will): Foamface. Through this character, I am inventing a world in my imagination that is another possibility of the world we have inherited from society. Thus it is an alter-modernity. One goal of this project is to establish an alternative society of information agents via the internet. It is about realizing the revolutionary potential of information: that is to change world (or at least provide a better one) through free D-I-Y culture. This would be a collaborative project for the today’s couriers of creative information. My creative energy, then, is going into figuring out how this gets done.

Seems like much of my life (at least my childhood) has been lived under the spell of a very charmed imagination. In a way, I’ve been reconnecting myself with the task of my youth, which was to be an inventor. Of course I also wanted to be a comic book artist, a toy maker, a super hero, a novelist, a sculptor and whole long, on-going parade of other figures that seemed romantic to my childhood imagination. I’ve always been distant from the real world because my imagination so often and easily prompts me away to very lofty and far off places. Perhaps I am on my way to returning to the world of possibilities that only a child can have. The only difference is that I don’t think I can (or will) sacrifice all of the practical knowledge that I have acquired of living in the world. I am reconnecting with my child self while still being aware that I am here (in the tangible world). Art is where imagination and the tangible collide.

SP: What do you hope to do with your creativity in the next 5 years? 10 Years?

JB: In five years, I like to imagine that I will have gotten the agency of IDS off the ground. I hope that I will be an excellent messenger of information. Also, I might be a substitute teacher.

In 10 years I hope to have really found what makes me happy in life. I believe that will probably be accomplished through creative means. If I can do this in 5 years (or less), that would be brilliant. Maybe it will really take me a lifetime. Either way, I think it would be cool if in ten years I have become something of a teacher in the fullest sense of the word. I like to think that that would be the gift that keeps on giving.

SP:What are some accomplishments that have bloomed from your creativity?

JB: The dozens of welded metal sculptures that I produced have brought me modest fame and riches in my youth. I received a number of commissions for my sculptures and an article about me was featured in an issue of Practice Welding Today, as well as a couple of local newspapers. Some of my works created are both public and monumental. I received recognition and praise through 4-H and their kind, yet critical judges of art. I also managed to become an isolated individual with not a friend to his name who experienced something much like agoraphobia. Then I made some friends. Then I had a solo show of my art at the River City Arts Center in Clinton, IA (the city where I was born).

I’ve played with many a talented musician. Performed many live free-jazz concerts, beginning with a performance opening for my high school’s jazz band concert. Recorded an album over the course of something like 14 hours with a trio of jazz musicians. Performed and choreographed 2 works of dance. The list certainly goes on, but I get weary of listing creative achievements. Don’t get me wrong, accomplishments are fun, but there is a lot more to life. True, creativity has its rewards. However, failures would be an even longer list.

SP: obstacles have you faced in developing your creativity?

JB: The artist’s ego. The burdens of solitude. Obsession. Relationships. Being too ambitious. Having the funds to invest into some of my ideas. Being inconsistent. Being too scatterbrained. Being too closed off. Being afraid.

SP: What aided the development in your creativity?

JB: Friendships. Heartbreaks. Strangeness. Ambition. Fondness. Passion. Curiosity. A supporting family. Great teachers. The artist’s ego. The burdens of solitude. Having the funds to invest into some of my ideas. Devotion/Dedication. Social Alienation / Estrangement. Imagination (duh) Obsession. New (and more) perspectives. Happenstance. History. Mystery.



Erin Monaghan
Erin is a freshman Fashion Design major at Columbia College in Chicago, Illinois. She graduated from Hampshire High School in 2006.

SP: What got you interested in fashion?

EM: My interest in Fashion became apparent when I worked at Calvin Klein. Design is a combination of things I love: coloring, drawing, expressing, and communicating. Designing clothes for women also brings me closer to the little girl I was, helps me discover the young lady I am and the woman I will become. It also helps me understand other people.

SP: What does creativity mean to you?

EM: It’s like the same feeling when you want to kiss someone really badly. You want to stop doing everything you’re doing and do that to express your feelings.

SP: What was high school like for you?

EM: The projects helped channel all my thoughts and ideas. My teacher made me realize that art isn't all about breaking rules, and it's good to improve. I didn't like hearing that at the time because my perception of art has always been boundless, but as it turns out, there are exceptions. Who doesn’t want their art to improve? If you're going to be an artist you need to filter through constructive criticism and listen to keep some of it in your pocket, learn from it then let it go.

My High school peers and I were on a different flow. I felt pretty burnt out and dull, and uncreative toward the end of high school. I was out of creatively out of shape because there weren't many people to share my interests with.

SP: Where have you been channeling your creativity most recently? How does this relate to your upbringing?

EM: A lot of my creative energy has been going into designing clothes. I never really grew out of scribbling. Ideas are always coming to me.

SP: What do you hope to do with your creativity in the next 5 years? 10 Years?

EM: In five years I’d love to work for ChloĆ© designing clothes. In Ten years it would be really nice to start my own collection.

SP: What are some accomplishments that have bloomed from your creativity?

EM: I think of going to college as an accomplishment. I’m learning so much this year and it also has made me more “creatively active”.

SP: What obstacles have you faced in developing your creativity?

EM: When I already have a lot of projects for school it’s hard sometimes to find inspiration and time for my own projects that I believe in.

SP: What aided the development in your creativity?

EM: My parents.


Shannon Spicer
Shannon is a senior Dance Performance major at Northern Illinois University in DeKalb, Illinois. She graduated from Barrington High School in Barrington, Illinois in 2006. She has been dancing since she was born.

SP: What got you interested in dance?

SS: I came out of the womb dancing. I always loved music, but I loved dancing to it even more. I was an avid head banger until I could walk, and then all hell broke loose!

My sister and I used to run out of the room in the middle of dinner, put on a record, dance around till we couldn't breathe, run back, sit down and burst into laughter. Moving was always so much fun for me, I could not keep the smile off my face.

When I turned three I was old enough to join Ballet, and I let the whole world know it. From that point forward my interest in dance began to shift and mold into more intricate designs. I was always the under dog because I was all limbs! It was hard to control myself as well as everyone else could. I was constantly shoved into the back, told I wasn't strong enough, and that I just wasn't trying. I used the negative feedback from my teachers to push me. I decided I was not there for their approval; I was there for myself. I loved to dance and I didn't know why yet, but gosh darn it I was going to find my way. From the back corner, I listened and watched diligently to the other student’s corrections, as well as their accomplishments. I taught myself by watching and listening how the movements were done. Ballet became a struggle for me, but one that I still found joy in. I was hooked

SP: What does creativity mean to you?

SS: The ability to be creative is in all of us, every life on this planet. It's the reason why we are all constantly changing and evolving. Our environment can only set the circumstances for change, and possibly push us toward a goal. It is the choice of the creature, to create a different way, causing change. Creativity is individual as well. It’s like a fingerprint. No one person has the same life or the same experiences. These are things that make up, what some people would call, the soul. The physical body is, I feel, part of the environment. The instincts we inherit from our experiences and our animal ancestors are environmental pushes for our creative unconscious to produce ideas. Change is what keeps life going.

The body takes us through these actions. It is a vessel for change.

SP: What was your high school experience like?

SS: My school had a high standard for art. There was separate hallways for art, theater, and dance. Unfortunately, I was pretty advanced and knew most of what they were teaching in the dance classes. It was mainly an exercise class for me. Also, many of the students took the class to goof off. I still learned quite a bit about the history of dance. It was an interesting experience, I was just surrounded by people who didn’t want to be there.

SP: Where have you been channeling your creativity most recently? How does this relate to your upbringing?

SS: I have been learning about ideas of dance in other cultures recently, and it has got me thinking about what dance means to other people. I like to study people, and really get a sense of what is going on in their mind through the gestures of their body. I feel like if I want to speak through some other form than words, I need to understand what causes people to move their body, not just around me, but all over the world. I not only want to communicate my ideas through movement and action, I also want others to feel moved to do the same. A freeing of the body can cause a freeing of the mind. The more open we are to other ideas as well as our own, the more I get across what I want to say to people. The trick is getting them involved.

I also have been thinking of the ugly. The repulsive feeling I get in the pit of your stomach when I look in the freaking mirror and all I see is shit. When I look at life and want to die. I need to find the core of my darkness. It is inside of me and I can’t very well keep it caged up.

Causing others to re-experience their own darkness would be my goal with this. If they were to feel I embodied some repressed thought in their subconscious, they may feel the opening of an ability to fully express themselves. Not just what seems appropriate in society, but everything on their minds. So many ideas go unheard because the fear of being exiled is too much wait to bear.

And beauty! The mind and body are such a beautiful connection to me. That something so pure and genuine as an emotion can be expressed only from the "hearts" connection to the body through the mind. You can’t bring anything genuine forth from you unless you can mentally connect yourself to that feeling. That is something everyone has in common. Feelings.

My ideas are a constant kaleidoscope. They're constantly shifting, changing and morphing back into one another. I cant tell you what my energy goes into really because it takes me over. I am overwhelmed by the possibilities. A constant cycle of change in the creative process keeps me on my toes! ;)

Well, I grew up in a strange environment. My Father has a disease called Lupus. I have watched him deteriorate from the goofy clown I grew up with to the extremely senile presence he can carry now. He and my mother have hated each other more than loved each other ever sense I was born. It’s hard to watch two people you love fight and bicker because one is incapable of helping the other. My dad has never really had a job. He is too slow for almost any work, and is becoming worse. There is no way he could support himself, so my Mamma keeps him as her husband. I watched their arguments like an insect on the wall. Seeing both sides, always just wishing I could say something to make them see the others side. But they never heard me. They were too deep in to be pulled out. My Dad had a couple strokes and a heart attack when I was in middle school, and I believe my perspective on life changed that day. I saw him through the hospital room window holding on to life by his teeth. I didn’t cry. I ended up going to dance that night actually. I couldn’t sit at home anymore. I gave two shits about perfection at that moment. I let my mind fly with out actually saying anything. Without putting my sorrow on anyone. I had an uncontrollable urge to just bore my feet into the floor and give it hell!!! When I got home I felt this strength in me. I was able to hold my mom and sister as they cried. I was at that moment a shoulder for the two strongest women I knew to cry on.

I went on from this experience to have a great interest in how other people feel. I knew there was something greater than me in this world, but that I had something to give. Life is fleeting. If I live a life of solitude, inside my own head I will never do anything worthwhile. Life is always best when you share with others, learn from others, and understand that there is no one-way.

SP: What do you hope to do with your talent/creativity in the next 5 years? 10 Years?

SS: I don't know. At this moment I want to explore, collaborate, perform for the masses, with the masses. I want to involve pedestrians in the art of dance. I want to bring it to the people for free, like graffiti. I want to keep things physical, not solely mental. Though I do want to explore issues I find important for contemplation or maybe action.

SP: What obstacles have you faced in developing your creativity?

SS: I guess the biggest one would be that I have a lot of anxiety when I'm around people. I think it holds me back sometimes from collaborating. I cant express myself to people with out a strange feeling of self-doubt.

SP: What aided the development in your creativity?

SS: All of the people I have ever met, all of the experiences I have ever had. My Father gave me the gift of a strange and wonderful imagination and gentile disposition. My Mother taught me to be strong, to give when you've got none, and bestowed upon me a sense of passion that I'm sure one day will cause me to spontaneously com-bust. And my sister most of all, she was the best friend I could have ever been born related to.


Pat Marek
Pat is a senior Art major at Northern Illinois University in DeKalb, Illinois. He graduated from Cary-Grove High School in Cary-Grove, Illinois in 2006. He has been working with the visual arts for as long as he can remeber.

SP: What got you interested in art?

PM: It was just something embedded in me. I was just attracted to it, I loved creating something that was mine

SP: What does creativity mean to you?

PM: Creativity is the most important thing an artist has. It is much more important than technique, anyone can practice to draw something just as it exists. A creative person makes something more exist in a piece of art. Something deeper and more personal.

SP: What was your high school experience like?

PM: I was the only student at Cary-Grove to have ever taken every art class that was offered. It was an excellent experience. There were a few good teachers at school. I would eat lunch with them. My peers were nothing like me. They took art as a blow-off class. The pleasure of creating something that was my own kept me positive. It was like a world away from the world to me.

SP: Where have you been channeling your creative energy in most recently? How does this relate to your upbringing?

PM: I am working on a bunch of different projects, I try to my art going in many directions. “Channeling” my creativity in just one direction scares me. My art rarely relates to my up-brining. I was never encouraged to make art. None of my family or friends were artists. Art was my own thing. I did my own thing and I do now.

SP:What do you hope to do with your creativity in the next 5 years. 10 Years?

PM: I have a lot of plans for the future, but right now my main focus is going to a good grad school and starting up my design website to help pay for school. After grad school I was to teach at a college somewhere.

SP:What are some accomplishments that have bloomed from your creativity?

PM: I have done so much through my art. This week I hope to install my first permanent sculpture on campus. It is a giant titanium/aluminum fingerprint of my right ring finger.

SP: What obstacles have you faced in developing your creativity?

PM: Money for paying for certain projects and school are pretty much the only problems. Organization is a bit of a problem for me too.

SP: What aided the development in your creativity?

PM: Keeping an open mind at all times.

Monday, February 1, 2010

The end of repetition

For the past month, I've been titling my posts with a verb the suffix -tion attached to it more or less. I've also been adding a picture with every post. I started to do this because it happened coincidentally on my second post, and then I just thought I would continue it to practice discipline.

Well I've never been too disciplined, and I've found this form of posting to be quite limiting. So enough is enough. That is all.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Perfection?


Some of the music on my computer contains the cracks and pops of an imperfect compact disc. Some of the CD's I have ripped on my computer were burnt CD's who's original source was another burnt CD. Now, I could download another copy of whichever album I want, but I prefer my imperfect copies for various reasons.

I am currently listening to Radiohead's In Rainbows. My dad burned me my copy, and he received his copy from a link posted by one of his band members though an email. I have no idea where his band member got it from, but I'm more than positive that if one were to trace the lineage of my copy of the album one would end up at the original link posted on Radiohead's website.

That doesn't really matter to me though. What matters most is that, according to my iTunes, I have listened to In Rainbows about 50 times, and if I were to re-download the album for the purpose of sound clarity, I would then be engaging in an entirely different listening experience, and it would not be the In Rainbows I know and trust. I anticipate the cracks and pops of Jigsaw Falling into Place and the bass peaks in House of Cards.

Sure, I bought In Rainbows the day it came out, and sure, I could rip it onto my computer, but I could've done that January 1st, 2008, and I'm not about to do it any time soon.

I'm going to end this post by saying, without getting into too much detail, yes, Radiohead is the perfect band, yes, In Rainbows is a perfect album, and yes, my "imperfect" copy of the album is just as perfect as yours is.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Dedication



This is for You

To anyone
who has laid their head
on top of a small amplifier
to feel the sound.

This is for you.

To anyone
who has attended a quiet concert
and opened a can of beer
at a time that flowed with the show.

This is for you.

To anyone
Following the sound
and wishing they had the paper
to use their pen.

This is for you.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Preparation


Yesterday I woke late, hazy trying to shake off a cold, the Ny-quill from the previous night, and the fact that I forgot my coffee at home. I got to class as my professor was shutting the door. I opened my notebook and wrote "Tuesday, January 18th" at the top of the page. I had no idea what date it was, and I wasn't about to dig through the pockets of my giant coat to find my phone to confirm it was or wasn't the date I had assumed. Instead, I looked at the heading of notebook that belonged to the girl sitting next to me. She had written "Tuesday, January 19th". This was one of those instances that takes me back to middle school, one where I would enter a test unprepared, knowing that I would be cheating that day. I scratched out the original date at the top of my paper and replaced it with what I could only assume was the correct date based on my record for the day.

All day I purposely didn't check the date. There was part of me that was hoping that she was wrong, and by chance I was right. I only wanted to be right to confirm my ideas about going with my gut-instincts. I wanted it to be a lesson to myself, a lesson only I would really ever know, until the day where I would teach that lesson, in a different form, to someone else.

But I was wrong. The day was right but the date was wrong. There was a part of me that was upset that I didn't learn my lesson. But there was another part of me that accepted a new lesson. I'll let the Beatles explain that one.